what are we supposed to do after uni? why do we hafta take up some shitty responsibilities that we didnt even know they belonged to us fuck em? hearing all the fucking conversation chez moi, the complainings, the grumpy talking, the letter openning, the tv fighting? my life is turend up side down and i dont even recognise myself here chez moi i cannot do whatever i want only that sometimes i feel happy with my doggieee i am controlled and constrained and limited and demanded and ordered. DAMN i wonder how my sister manage to go through the period of transformation or actaully its her who created this transformation phrase?! dun fucking wanna talk, will i get that one day? remmember talking to shir the other day and we felt like seeing another us, same situation except hers is even more worrying but at least she's got a company and i am alone carrie said perhaps its us who fakes the whole lonely thing ourselves, or actually we wouldnt be lonely if we were not surrounded by couples,. but anyway after all we are alone, how shall we conquer this kind of fear and fucking feelingss? right, again, i heard my mere yelling at the TV again, so wanna go down there and breathh | 
